15 weeks

How far along? 15 Weeks1day

Total weight gain/loss: Still down 4 pounds.

Maternity clothes? Yep!! I just need to find some on sale! :) Or I might just go broke!

Sleep: LOVE.SLEEP! lol. I know this only lasts so long so I am taking every advantage of it. I am *trying* to not take naps everyday--but lets face it I am just plain exhausted!

Best moment this week: Hearing my babies heartbeat for the first time!!!! Wow.best.moment.EVER!!! :)

Movement: Still early---but I *think* I felt it kick me the other day when I was laying down..totally freaked me out! Hopefully I will feel Miracle move/kick soon! :)

Food cravings: French fries from outback!! O they make my mouth water! :)

Gender: Still unsure--Daddy think wants a boy...mommy thinks a boy--but want a girl! ;)

Labor Signs: NO!!! And don't want any for months!!

Belly Button in or out? In..that will be awhile until that happens,I think I have one of the deepest belly buttons lol.

What I miss: Nothing!!

What I am looking forward to: Finding out the Gender!!! *Please Miracle just uncross your legs for a moment so Mommy and Daddy can figure out what you are--Mommy is dying to buy girl or boy clothes!"

Milestones: Made it to 2nd trimester! :) I am one happy momma! (<--did I just say that?--that is me? Wow it still is so shocking to me! Not going to lie it still scares me to admit that I am pregnant! I think I feel if I say something then it will be taken away from me!) :(

Weekly update 14weeks!!

How Far Along: 14 weeks today (going into our 15th week!)



Baby's Growth: 




Mama's Body: Welcome to your second trimester! Your energy is likely returning, your breasts may be feeling less tender, and your queasiness may have completely abated by now. If not, hang on — chances are good it will soon be behind you (although an unlucky few will still feel nauseated months from now).

Maternity clothes: Absolutely. The pants are to.die.for!! LOVE them!

Sleep: Its all I do right now. I take 2 hr naps!! (Don't get me wrong I LOVE my naps but I am kinda ready to have the energy back to get ready for Miracle). If I don't/can't fit a nap in then I am in bed by 8:30pm. I do notice that when I wake up my back is hurting and I'm thinking about buying a pregnancy pillow--any suggestions are welcome!

Best moment of the week: Hello 2nd trimester!!!! :)


Movement: Still too early--although every twinge,pull,tummy growl I pray its Miracle! :) Wishful thinking??--I think so!!

Symptoms: Nausea is in full blown effect! It seems to be getting worse as I get further along in pregnancy--lets pray that it stops lets say,this week? And does NOT continue the whole 9 months! Whoa-that would total knock me on my butt! Sore boobs always. Diarrhea is still in full effect! :( It's NOT fun. I can tell you-I would go through all of this in a heartbeat,I'm NOT complaining here! :) I'm starting to get alittle "pooch"-still at that--"Is she pregnant or just ate one too many burritos stage". :)

Food cravings/aversions: The past couple weeks sour things have been amazing,but now I'm onto chocolate! :) I LOVE soft serve chocolate ice cream. I HATE the smell of melted cheese. You can forget spaghetti--don't get me near it! lol. French fries and cereal have been my cravings the past couple weeks.(Pray for me--lol)

Belly button in or out: Still in... it'll be a while.

Stretch marks: None,lets keep it that way :)

What I miss: Absolutely nothing! I LOVE being pregnant!!

What I am looking forward to: Our appointment on the 17th! I'm DYING to see Miracle again!!!

 

Weekly wisdom: Don't roller blade while pregnant--who knew?? :) oops!! *Luckily I didn't fall but I guess I really didn't think that one through!

Gender: Still unsure. Daddy thinks wants a boy,Mommy had a dream it was a boy--but I think im going with everyone else and say it's a girl.
The top of your uterus is a bit above your pubic bone, which may be enough to push your tummy out a tad. Starting to show can be quite a thrill, giving you and your partner visible evidence of the baby you've been waiting for. Take some time to plan, daydream, and enjoy this amazing time. It's normal to worry a bit now and then, but try to focus on taking care of yourself and your baby, and having faith that you're well equipped for what's ahead
This week's big developments: Miracle can now squint, frown, grimace, pee, and possibly suck his thumb! Thanks to brain impulses, his facial muscles are getting a workout as his tiny features form one expression after another. Miracles kidneys are producing urine, which he/she releases into the amniotic fluid around him — a process Miracle will keep up until birth. He/She can grasp, too, and if you're having an ultrasound now, you may even catch him sucking his thumb.Miracle is stretching out. From head to bottom, he measures 3 1/2 inches —About a size of a lemon—and Miracle weighs 1 1/2 ounces. His/Her body's growing faster than his/her head, which now sits upon a more distinct neck. By the end of this week, his/her arms will have grown to a length that's in proportion to the rest of his body. (His/her legs still have some lengthening to do.) Miracle is starting to develop an ultra-fine, downy covering of hair, called lanugo, all over his body. Miracle's liver starts making bile this week — a sign that it's doing its job right — and his/her spleen starts helping in the production of red blood cells. Though you can't feel its tiny punches and kicks yet, your little pugilist's hands and feet (which now measure about 1/2 inch long) are more flexible and active

A long waited post!!!!

Wow--my life has been such a crazy one lately...I hope to be able to catch everyone up. First off Im SO sad that I haven't been blogging as much as always-but I can tell you I still read your blogs every day! :) I promise I will be better at blogging!!

I have been waiting SO long to write this post!- I wanna start with where I left off. We were waiting results and hoping for our BFP. I was SO incredibly nervous excited to find out if our second IUI worked. It was 12dpIUI and I was pretty sure it didn't work. I had emailed a couple of my IF bloggers and asked them when they started testing. They ALL said to wait to atleast 12dpIUI. So that night my husband was laying in bed watching tv eating chips and I quietly came in and just layed in bed with him. I kept thinking that I wanted to take a test that night (it was 5pm), but I knew the results could come back negative even if it was postive because it was still so early. (my doctors office requires you to take a HPT and if its positive then they will give you a blood test.) Well I asked my hubby if I should take a test--he quickly said "why not?". I immediately said "are you crazy? It's 5pm and you are suppose to do it at the first morning pee." He looked at me and politely said "Then why did you ask ME". Hmm--thanks for NOTHING! :) So then I said "thats it I'm going to take the test right now" and jumped up and ran to go grab the test from the kitchen(I hadn't put them in the bathroom yet--too tempting to leave in there and NOT pee on them! lol). I was walking to our bathroom and he looked at me and said "please don't--I don't think it worked and I don't want you to be upset". (insert puppy-dog face,poor guy he just doesn't want to listen to the tears anymore,I don't blame him at all!); anywho--I assured him I wouldn't hysterically.sob my eyes out, cry too much if it was negative. I took the test and the room went silent. I walked into the bedroom and he had stopped eating his chips and the tv was on mute(or paused,can't remember). We just stared back at each other for what seemed forever. I told him it had been like 2 minutes and he quickly reminded me that it takes 3 minutes to read!! I was WAY to nervous to wait-so I walked into the bathroom and looked at the test...I walked back into the bedroom with my mouth covering my jaw and my eyes were the size of cantelopes. He said "what does that mean"...the next words changed my life forever.......OMG-it.worked!!!!!!!!!!!! :) We cried for what seemed hours! It was the most wonderful thing ever! I couldn't have asked for a better moment!! We found out on Oct. 28th that we were going to be parents! :) Thank you everyone who has prayed/called/texted/emailed!! I seriously could NOT have gone through this with out you! I can't believe we won the fight against infertility!!
Im so sorry I didn't post this earlier--but I wanted to wait until second trimester!! :)

Here's the our life through bullet point until I update:
**Our due date is July 9th--my birthday is July 3rd so I could possibly have the BEST birthday gift ever!
**We went for our first ultrasound when I was 6 weeks2days and the baby already had a heartbeat! :)
**We have named our bundle of joy...miracle. (original huh?-lol)
**We find out what we are having next month! :) eeeeek!!!
**I am 14 weeks today.
**I passed my early glucose screening!! :)
**We hit second trimester people!!!!!!!!!!

Again thank you for all the love and support we have recieved for the past 2 1/2 years as we were fighting for our little miracle--and now in just 6 months we will meet our little miracle!! AHHHH!! :)


*I will try to update with the rest of the stories/weeks as time goes on!!

Fire away

Holy moly--today is trigger day!! OMG--I can't believe this cycle is going by SO fast! My last cycle I did almost 15days of shots(follistem) and this cycle I have only done 7! Im a week ahead of last cycle--hopefully that means something because last cycle didn't work! :( I PRAY this one works and Im so nervous for this IUI. I am almost to the point that I don't want to test so someone can't tell me that im NOT pregnant. It kills me everytime I see that "not pregnant" on the pee stick. Total shot to the heart :(

So today I got my bloodwork drawn and my E2 was 1678!! I also had my ultrasound and my left ovary is rockin it! I have a 17mm,15.5mm and 14mm! O please let one of these be my future baby?! :) the nurse called today and confirmed that they would trigger me today at 5pm! My IUI will be sunday morning at 8:30am. I have to go to work afterwards! :( NOT excited about that at all-but I only work until 3pm --so I guess I can go into work for 4 hours! : /


*please keep me in your prayers and I will update on sunday how the IUI went! :)

Results..

This morning I had my first E2 draw--results came back at 282! WHOA mama!! As I look back at my last cycle here my first estradiol draw was 81! Huge difference! This cycle is totally different! I don't really know what to expect--my expectations are set high and and hoping/praying that this is MY month! I will do another list view of this cycle to compare--because again lets face it,im def OCD when it comes to my "cycles".

**On a VERY happy side note, I went to the pharmacy friday to pick up my other 600unit follistem and the pharmacy said that it was 'covered' and that I didn't have to pay anything....ajjnfkajbjbakjfnajksgakg!!!! EEK! :) Can you believe it?! I wasn't stopping to ask questions I said "ok-thank you very much! Have a blessed day!" ;) And off I went with my FREE liquid gold!! How freaking lucky can you get?! I know all you ladies out there that have paid a bagillion(yes that is a word...in my book!) dollars for follistem,totally understand the total shock and excitement in my fingers as Im typing this! :)

Reminders...

So today I hit huge, alittle bump in the road today when trying to fill my meds at the pharmacy. It closed at 7pm,my doctors office closes at 5pm. I was at the pharmacy at 3:30pm--and of course it hits the fan an hr and a half before they close. Seriously?! If something bad happens it ALWAYS happens to me and when my hubby is gone. He went camping this week...left sunday and won't be back until thursday night. I am SO lost without him when it comes to financial/business/freakouts situations. He's my rock and can calm me down within a matter of seconds!

Anyways--so I go to pick up my meds(my first shot is tonight..holy cow I hate doing them by myself! yikes-pray for me!) and the pharmicist says "ok that will be $687.32".....alksdhfroajnajksdfnakljhsgjnajsenfjnajean<---that is all I was thinking at that moment! OR in Josey's words...HFS! :) I immediately gave her a look like.."Are you talking to me?!" <insert-turning of head and total finger point to the chest> She again said "Yes,that will be $687.32"--now my eyes are the size of freaking softballs! **my insurance should be covering these meds**...SO then she says that I need a prior authorization and that could take up to 3 days.....HFS again--I have to start these meds in like 4hours lady! O if looks could kill--she would be 30 feet under. She said I had to call my *doctor* to get him to call the insurance company(yeah right lady--what dr do you know that will call an insurance company,I mean really?)..and tell them I need this med. She says calmly.."I guess your doctor didn't know you were taking this med".....ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME??--every damn nurse in that office knows every women on a cycle you retard--my head is spinning at this point!! I call my DR's office and they said that they have never had to give a prior auth and that they shouldn't have to do one. GREAT--again if something can go bad it happens to me! Like seriously I work for the hospital that the pharmacy is in--I have my work insurance and the DR's office I use is a satellite office for the hospital I work for!!! HELLO PEOPLE LETS GET IT TOGETHER!! SO--to sum it up--DR's office calls me back and says that I have to pay for it first and then the insurance company will reimburse..a.k.a.---pay and then never see that money again!! So I told her I was NOT made of money and that I would only pay for 1 cartridge of follistem and that they better make sure that authorization comes in soon because that 1 cartridge is only going to last me 4 days TOPS!

**ok rant over!! :)
Now to more important things like...my baseline ultrasound appointment!! :)
In one ovary I have 14 follies and the other I have 9...I say one and the other because the resident mixed up my ovaries and was pushing so freaking hard that I couldn't remember which is which--thanks! They are starting me on 100units for the next 4 days and then I go in on sunday for my estradiol to be checked! :) YAY for getting up early for no reason! :) lol.

**next part of my blog was to say that this one post on Tiffany's blog has been on my mind and I can totally relate to it. I posted on fb that "being infertile sucks"--whoa talk about getting traffic on my page! I love Tiffany's post about everything a "fertile" person says. I get told alot and I guess I was having a pitty party and just needed a reminder that Im not the only one dealing with this and that I just need to turn to my blogger friends who truly understand where Im coming from and the hurt/pain/sense of being less of a women that I feel!

If you are still here at the end of this you freaking rock and I love you :)

Here goes nothing!!

Its starting!! :) AF made her wonderful appearance today--actually took me by surprise,I wasn't even finished with my provera and there she was! LOL--It normally takes 2-3 days AFTER I stop provera to make AF show up! CRAZY!

So I called my Dr's office today and I go in on wed for my baseline ultrasound! :) YAY--I really can't believe its happening again! The last time I did a cycle was in May!! Needless to say I am DYING to get this cycle started! I am excited yet still nervous;I have such high hopes and I don't want to be crushed again. I am EXTREMELY scared this one won't work either! I want to go into this cycle excited,not scared! I want to enjoy them as I only have 3 left. (well 2 if you don't include this one im startng in 2DAYS--eeek!) ;) <--can you tell I'm just alittle excited!

Wish me luck!! :)